Thursday, July 18, 2013

the day samuel david was born.

samuel david ulrich 
saturday, may 18, 2013
9 pounds 1 ounce
21 inches
10:49 am

(finally finished samuel's birth story...two months later. haha. lots of pictures to come!)

It was finally friday and i was so happy. The week had probably been one of the most tiring weeks i have ever had. I spent monday(5/13) at school, tuesday(5/14) & wednesday(5/15) at the hospital doing double clinicals, both of which were eight and half hours long, and thursday(5/16) all day at school. on top of that i was sick with an annoying cough and congested nose and chest. I was also happy it was friday because i was going to the doctor and was excited to have them finally check me to see if i was dilated.  My mom came with me and i was a little bit disappointed when dr. schwartz said i was only 1 centimeter, but also relieved because i still wasn't done getting all the baby/hospital stuff together. She measured my belly and i had gone from a fundal height of 39 the week before to a 37 this week. The baby was dropping. We talked about next weeks appointment and doing fetal monitoring since i would be overdue at that point. She also told me to get my hospital bag packed since babies always decide they want to come in the middle of the night. I put it on my to-do list for the next day.

We left the doctor and i left to the pharmacy to pick up some medicine in hopes of getting well before baby arrived. I finally made it home and then it was off to BJ's where we were meeting grandpa and auntie diana for dinner. It was 6:30. We ordered our food and were talking when i started not feeling so good. I had eaten a small salad and a bite of pizza and felt really full and was starting to notice pain in my belly. It was different from braxton hicks and i knew in the back of my head that this was the start, but kept telling myself that it wasn't. auntie diana could see that i wasn't feeling well and kept asking me if i was okay. I texted my mom asking if contractions counted if they didn't hurt. She said yes as long as they were coming regularly. We finished dinner, and i told david that we better go to target to get some nursing bras for me in case baby decided to come early. Off to target we went, at this point i was still feeling pretty good. The stomach pain was only coming every 15 minutes or so, and nothing to the point where I couldn't walk or talk. When we got home I felt fine up until going to bed at midnight. I took a shower hoping it would help me relax and go to sleep. No such luck and back into the shower I went at 1:30am after tossing and turning in bed. While i was in the shower i had two "real" contractions that hurt. no more of just the tightness of braxton hicks. When i got out of the shower i told david that i was pretty sure baby was coming today and he better get some sleep while he could. Who was i kidding to tell a soon to be first time dad to go to bed while his wife was having contractions!

We finally started timing the contractions for real at 1:43 a.m, and boy did they hurt. They were coming on average every eight or so minutes. I was determined to look some what decent in my pictures so I started blow drying my hair in between the pain. Finally around 3:30 a.m. I texted my mom the times of the contractions I was having and told her that I think baby was gonna come today. I also made sure she brought over some nail polish remover and cotton balls to do my toe nails because no one wants ugly feet when you are about to have a baby. By the time my mom got to our house around 3:45 a.m. contractions were coming regularly about every five minutes. They were hurting really bad and i was trying out different positions to make them less painful. That's when my mom told me i was having back labor. It was so intense, and i felt immediate relief once each one was over. As i continued to have this pain, i was straightening my hair in between each one and my mom painted my toes. David was such a big help, and helped me through each contractions. He reminded me to breathe, and put pressure on my back with each one. I was determined to stay home as long as possible so that i wouldn't be sent home from the hospital for not being far enough along. Finally around 5 a.m. we went to my moms house so i could be more comfortable to relax, but once we got there it was decided that we should leave for the hospital since the contractions were now coming 3 to 4 minutes apart. The car ride to to hospital was not fun, and i kept telling david to slow down on the bumpy parts of the road, and to go faster when they were smooth. I had three contractions in the ten minute car ride...not fun!

Once we got to the hospital we were checked in after what felt like forever. I changed into my gown in the triage room and they hooked me up so they could monitor baby's heart rate and the contractions. It was around 6 a.m. The nurse checked to see if i was dilated and much to my surprise i was already at a 5!!! When i found that out, it totally put me in the mindset that i was halfway there and i was going to be able to do this. They moved us into the labor and delivery room and we met our nurses, who were the best! Since i had a new nurse shadowing my nurse, they both stayed in my room the ENTIRE time. it was so nice. Contractions were hurting so bad and i felt like yelling with each one, but was reminded by everyone in the room to just breathe through them. Not too long after getting to my room my nurse asked what my pain was and i told her 8/10. Since i was only 5cm, she must have been nervous because she sat down next to me and started telling me all about epidurals and how i would have to have a bag of saline before they would be able to give me one and that would take at least 20 minutes. Throughout the whole pregnancy i knew i wanted to have as natural of a birth as possible. No pain meds, no pitocin to speed up labor, no inducing. I acknowledged her epidural talk but still didn't want one. I was checked again around 8:30 a.m. by my doctor and she said i was at a 5/6. Since my water hadn't broken yet, and contractions were going off the monitors, she suggested to break my water for me to help my progress. I said yes, and next thing you know i am sitting in a lot of warm fluid. It was the craziest feeling, and i could feel that there was not so much pressure as before. The nurses had me moving around in all different positions because baby was sunny side up and that's what was causing me to have such bad back labor. I sat on the birthing ball, in a rocking chair, leaned over the side of the bed, held onto david, and layed in bed. I definitely preferred holding onto to someone like slow dancing and having another person put pressure on my back. We had a party in the delivery room with my mom and dad, david's mom and aunt, and david, plus the two nurses! Everyone was such a big help and they all took turns rubbing my back and holding my hand. I would call my dad over to hold one of my hands and i would squeeze and let go, and he would still be squeezing mine. I had to tell him a few times to stop squeezing my hand, i was supposed to be the one squeezing his! I also turned into some crazy holy lady while i was having contractions. I was saying a lot of "ohh lordy, lordy, lordy!" and "oh lord, please help me!" I was checked again around 9:30am and was at a 7/8. Finally some progress. I was starting to feel lots and lots of pressure on my bottom and they checked me again and i was at a 9. It was around 10:00 a.m.  A few contractions later i felt like pushing so bad! I was telling my nurse and she told me to wait at least a few more contractions. I told her i couldn't and that i was gonna push and she gave me the go ahead after one contraction. Everything was happening so fast. The doctor wasn't even in the room yet and i started pushing. It hurt a lot but also relieved a lot of pain and pressure. The doctor finally came in and the pushing continued. Pushing baby's head out was the craziest feeling. There was SOO much pressure, which was gone right after. After a few more pushes baby was born, and i immediately felt no pain! It was such an amazing moment, and i was so happy to hold and meet my sweet boy. I don't remember anything that was happening around me, because i was in such awe of how beautiful he was. While i was getting stitched up(ouch!!) the baby got his footprints stamped, weighed and measured and a bath. Once they handed sam to me, i knew he was a big boy...but everyone else thought he looked small and was in the 7-8 lb range. when the scale said 9lbs 1oz everyone was so surprised.

Having my family come in afterwards to see the baby is something i will never forget. My three brothers came in and saw the baby, and were so sweet with him...taking lots of pictures and talking with him. I also loved having my family in the delivery room with me. I was thinking it might be a little awkward to have anyone besides my mom and david in the room with my while sammy was being born, but everything felt fine and natural with them in there. i'm so happy they could be there to witness this amazing experience. Also when you are in such pain, you don't really care who is coming in to look at you, even with your legs up in the air!

My favorite moment came after they took me, baby, and david into the postpartum room. They settled us all in and left us alone to get some rest. Baby samuel got to lay with me skin to skin on my chest and i remember feeling so happy and thankful for everything that i had in my life. He was so calm and snuggly and slept so peacefully on my chest. I felt so lucky to be his mama and so thankful that he had david as a dad.

Having a baby was definitely the hardest thing i have ever done. The pain is something that i can't begin to describe. It hurt so bad that i couldn't even cry. I gave birth to samuel all naturally with no pain medication what so ever. This is something that i am so proud of myself for being able to do. I would definitely say that before going through birth my pain threshold was low, but after going through has gone up quite a bit. I am also so proud of myself for finishing my first semester of nursing school while being pregnant...and with a newborn. After sam was born i had to go back when he was just six days old. I also had to take my final when he was only 12 days old. Throughout the whole semester i would have to tell myself pretty much every single day that this is something i could do. "you can do this!" was my mantra...and i did it! I am so thankful for david and everything he does for me and sam. Although i am the one who wakes up in the middle of the night to change the diapers and feed, he is the one who sings silly songs, and talks to him about all kinds of things. from dating to pooping to playing football. so funny. I remember him talking to sam in the kitchen one night telling him that "he was so cute and it must be hard to be that cute and that he was once a cute baby too, and knows how hard it is!"

I love my two boys oh so much and am the happiest i have ever been in my whole life.

Friday, May 10, 2013

oh baby: weeks 34. 35. 36. 37. 38!!!

23rd birthday dinner: 34 weeks! so sad my chalkboard picture is so blurry from that week! boo

How far along? 38 weeks + 3 days!!! oh my! i went to the doctor today and we are measuring right on time...still not sure if i'm dilated or not(they haven't checked me?!), but he is definitely head down! 

Total weight gain/loss: up 24 pounds. most i've ever weighed my whole life!

Maternity clothes? yes!

Stretch marks? still no stretch marks. hopefully i can finish these last 11 days with none!

Sleep: going okay. i was miserable for a couple weeks, but i think i'm just so tired now, that i can fall asleep whether my pelvis hurts, the baby is kicking, or if i'm just uncomfortable. 

Best moment this week: feeling little legs and feet inside my tummy while sitting on the couch today. it's so fun to feel actual body parts and know that i'll soon be holding a little baby. 

Movement: i think i have the wiggliest baby ever. he moves around all day, and especially loves to get his kicks/rolls out when its time for mama to go to bed. 

Food cravings: still eating lots of ice. 

Anything making you queasy or sick: nope

Have you started to show yet: oh yes. i look and feel like i'm going to pop any second. lots of people like to ask if im "going to go into labor right now." haha

Gender prediction: IT'S A BOY! little mister is on his way!

Belly Button in or out? outtie. 

Wedding rings on or off? on! 

Happy or Moody most of the time: happy! i'm so excited to be done with school (3 more weeks!!!) and have little samuel here. this is going to be the best summer ever!!!

pregnancy symptoms: i can finally breath! thanks to 8 hour days at the hospital on my feet i now have swollen ankles and feet! so not cute. pelvis still hurts too but that means baby is closer to making his debut. 


Wednesday, April 3, 2013

oh baby: week 31&32&33

huge belly at 31 weeks! ohhh my. 

How far along? 33 weeks+1 day

Total weight gain/loss: up 15 pounds

Maternity clothes? yes!

Stretch marks? still no stretch marks...thank goodness!

Sleep: going okay. still waking up every couple hours to change sleeping positions and to go pee! i can only imagine how fun sleep will be when sammy gains a couple more POUNDS!

Best moment this week: it's spring break!!! also today was my last day of work at the cookie shoppe! so bittersweet. 

Movement: we've got a little wiggle worm! little mister moves all day long...there's lots of knees, elbows, and a little baby bum kicking my tummy. he also likes to get hiccups at least a couple times a day. 

Food cravings: ice! and nutter butter bars.

Anything making you queasy or sick: getting "morning sickness" back every once in a while...not fun! 

Have you started to show yet: yes...but feeling like i'm staying pretty much the same size the last few weeks. sam feels a lot bigger and stronger though.

Gender prediction: IT'S A BOY! little mister is on his way!

Belly Button in or out? fully an outtie now. 

Wedding rings on or off? on!

Happy or Moody most of the time: tired most of the time! i'm so excited to be getting closer and closer to the due date, but also stressing out over it getting closer and closer and school being crazy! 

pregnancy symptoms: short of breath!!! lots of braxton hicks, sore hips, sciatica, nausea! 


Friday, March 15, 2013

the present journey.

Remember when i used to actually blog about stuff other than little mister samuel.
yeah it has been a long since before i found out he was coming 30ish weeks.

Life is so crazy busy and tiring right now. between growing a human, being in my first semester of nursing school and working, i pretty much just want to curl up in a ball and wake up with it all being over...especially the school part! but that's how life goes sometimes...and before i know it, i will be taking care of a baby and be nurse tessa.

samuel: i haven't done much to prepare for this new little man. just like before we have a bassinet and some clothes and that is pretty much it...but as my boss said: all sammy d needs is a mom and dad and grandma too...which is so true. The baby shower will be sometime in april, but that's pretty much all we have planned concerning that. The hospital tour still hasn't been scheduled, pre-admission paper work is still blank, and birthing classes haven't been signed up for. i have a big idea in my head of how i want samuel's little corner in our room to look, but with everything going on, who knows when that will get done.

school: nursing school is tough. i've learned so much already, and we have barely even started our student nursing career. We have lecture tests every week, and are tested on "skills" every week as well.  This was our first week working with patients at the hospital and that was an eye opening experience. I can definitely say that as much as i love conversing and communicating with the older patient population, i would rather work with pediatric patients concerning the patient care. We are almost half way through the semester, so time is flying by, but i'm sure it will slow down as i get more pregnant and tired. booo!

work: i stop working in two-ish weeks, and i am both relieved and sad. this will be the first time since i was 16 that i haven't had a "job", but going to school and being in my last trimester of pregnancy will be a "job" in itself i suppose. It will be nice to have a day off to rest and get some school work done. I have been really blessed having the job, co-workers, and boss that i do for the last four years, and it will be bittersweet to say goodbye, but it's time. Speaking of work, i miss my husband. It's that time of year again for him, where we only get to see each other for an hour or so a night. sometimes i find myself envious of people i see that get to hang out with their spouse and go and do fun stuff, eat dinner together, hang out on the weekends...but then i remind myself that we are all on different journeys and some sacrifice and stress now, will be worth it in the end. i still do not like tax season though.

so there you have it. life is full of pregnancy, school, and work right if you don't see much of anything else, it's because that's the journey we're on.

love, t&d&sam

Thursday, March 14, 2013

oh baby: week 30

How far along? 30 weeks +2days. 10 weeks left!!! crazy.

Total weight gain/loss: still up 13 pounds! 

Maternity clothes? oh yes!

Stretch marks? no. itchy belly though! cocoa butter is still being applied every night.

Sleep: going okay. still waking up a few times a night either due to having to go pee, my hip/rib hurting, or can't sleep because i think i wont hear my alarm clock for school! 

Best moment this week: surviving my first day of clinical rotations at the VA hospital!

Movement: so much moving all day long! he is usually pretty good about going to sleep when i'm ready for bed...but he definitely wakes up every time i get up and wiggles around a little bit.

Food cravings: ice ice ice

Anything making you queasy or sick: the liquid iron i have to take since i'm anemic. yuck. 

Have you started to show yet: yes! feeling like i'm starting to waddle around.

Gender prediction: IT'S A BOY! little mister is on his way!

Belly Button in or out? fully an outtie now. 

Wedding rings on or off? on!

Happy or Moody most of the time: happy but oh so tired and stressed. hopefully these last ten weeks fly by!

pregnancy symptoms: short of breath(this is my number one complaint), sore ribs, tired.


Friday, March 8, 2013

oh baby: week 28&29

How far along? 29 weeks 3 days

Total weight gain/loss: up 13 pounds! 

Maternity clothes? yes...and i'm going to have to buy a couple 
things the next size up because the stuff i have right now definitely isn't going to last 11 more weeks. 

Stretch marks? no. itchy belly though! cocoa butter is still being applied every night.

Sleep: some good nights, some bad nights. i'm finally getting used to waking up so early in the morning. sleep includes lots of pillows all around me and a blanket wedged under my tummy. 

Best moment this week: seeing my belly have little mini earthquakes. being told i did a good job at the simulation hospital! hoooray...nursing school is tough!!!

Movement: so much moving from this wiggly guy. he's just like his dad...can't sit still for any period of time. we like to joke he has restless leg syndrome. 

Food cravings:not a food...but ice! i bought a whole bag just to have to eat since we don't have a fancy fridge that makes it.

Anything making you queasy or sick: no. i feel like i have morning sickness in the early afternoon some days fun!

Have you started to show yet: yes yes yes. some people love to say how tiny i am though...and others tell me that i look so big. which one is it?! i feel like i have a ball attached to my stomach...and have found myself running into things. sorry sammy!

Gender prediction: IT'S A BOY! little mister is on his way!

Belly Button in or out? fully an outtie now. 

Wedding rings on or off? on!

Happy or Moody most of the time: happy and so excited to meet this little mister. i can't wait to see what he looks like, how his personality is, and to love on him all day long. i'm also getting really stressed learning so much new stuff at school, working, and being pregnant! one day at a time & lots of breathing.

pregnancy symptoms: short of breath(this is my number one complaint), sore ribs, tired.


Thursday, February 21, 2013

oh baby: week 26&27

How far along? 27 weeks plus two days.

Total weight gain/loss: up 12 pounds...!

Maternity clothes? yes! and some are even too small now?! 

Stretch marks? no. itchy belly though! cocoa butter is being applied every night.

Sleep: going okay. once i get into a comfortable position i'm good to go, but then i move during the night, and if i wake up, it's back to square one. 

Best moment this week: just taking it day by day. i'm one tired momma between work and school. little mister has been a crazy monkey the last couple days and moving like crazy, which is always fun. 

Movement: so much moving...all day long. not so many kicks anymore(although he kicked me really hard a couple times today) but more rolling and flipping. he really likes to kick me "down there" and it sometimes feels like his little leg/arm is gonna pop out!

Food cravings:oranges/apples/ice sound good all the time. 

Anything making you queasy or sick: no.

Have you started to show yet: yes. i was even told i have a monster baby this week. he's either a big boy, or i'm carrying all in front. 

Gender prediction: IT'S A BOY! little mister is on his way!

Belly Button in or out? fully an outtie now. 

Wedding rings on or off? on!

Happy or Moody most of the time: happy but oh so tired. still recovering from decorating a million cookies on valentines day and getting used to waking up at 6am for class. 

pregnancy symptoms: short of breath, sore ribs, tired. 


Thursday, February 7, 2013

oh baby: week 25

How far along? 25 weeks on tuesday!

Total weight gain/loss: still up ten pounds. phew.

Maternity clothes? yes...and lots of them (thanks kalita!)

Stretch marks? no

Sleep: so so much better this week, with the exception to the couple days i had a bad head cold...again! my sleeping in days are over though now that nursing school has started. class starts at 7:30!!! boo.

Best moment this week: feeling little mister kick all day long, starting school today!

Movement: so much moving for this little boy. he kicked me all day long while i was at school today and it is seriously so much fun to feel him! one of the things i will most definitely miss when he is out in the world. I do tell him all the time to not kick so low though...those low blows can really take my breath away. 

Food cravings: none

Anything making you queasy or sick: no.

Have you started to show yet: yes! i feel like my tummy is stretched so much sometimes, especially when samuel balls up right in the front.  

Gender prediction: IT'S A BOY! little mister is on his way!

Belly Button in or out? getting to be more and more of an outie. 

Wedding rings on or off? on!

Happy or Moody most of the time: happy! but it's definitely no fun being sick and pregnant. i'm so glad that i am finally feeling better. 

pregnancy symptoms: short of breath, sore ribs. 


Tuesday, January 29, 2013

oh baby: week 24

How far along? 24 weeks today! six whole months down!!!

Total weight gain/loss: up ten pounds!!! oh my goodness...i'm pretty sure baby isn't growing that much, which means i need to slow it down! the doctor even told me to watch what i eat today?! booo

Maternity clothes? exclusively in maternity/yoga pants and mixing my maternity shirts with regular ones. i even got maternity scrubs this week! stylin.

Stretch marks? no

Sleep: no fun. i used to look forward to bedtime and now it's more of a "please let me sleep comfortably tonight!" i may or may not have had a little cry fest the other night due to the fact that i couldn't breath laying on my back and laying on either side hurt the heck out of my ribs and back! on top of that i ate wayyyy too many mashed potatoes at dinner and ended up getting sick. all of this = a crazy pregnant lady & a no clue what to do husband. it was funny.  

Best moment this week: hearing little misters heartbeat at the doctor today! feeling him squirm around more and more as each day goes by. 

Movement: yes! and lots of it. he is getting stronger at his leg kicks and arm punches too! 

Food cravings: none in particular. i can eat anything, and obviously have. haha

Anything making you queasy or sick: no.

Have you started to show yet: yes! it's funny to hear some people tell me..."you're finally looking pregnant!" ohhh i've looked pregnant for a while now! now i'm starting to feel big...and i am big. the doctor measured my belly today and she said it was 28cm!!! people that's four weeks ahead! 

Gender prediction: IT'S A BOY! little mister is on his way!

Belly Button in or out? half in half out?!

Wedding rings on or off? on!

Happy or Moody most of the time: this was a bad week. i was pretty darn moody and uncomfortable! 

pregnancy symptoms: short of breath, sore back, sore ribs. uncomfortable!!! 


Tuesday, January 22, 2013

oh baby: week 23

p.s. ignore my spelling! pregnant brain is in full force now-a-days!

How far along? 23 weeks today!

Total weight gain/loss: up eight pounds?! need to slow this down!!!

Maternity clothes? exclusively in maternity/yoga pants and mixing my maternity shirts with regular ones.

Stretch marks? no

Sleep: better than last week. sleeping with a pillow in-between my legs has really helped!

Best moment this week: having four straight days off of work! thank you mlk day! getting my nursing uniform and name feels so official!

Movement: yes! moving around all throughout the day, but still sleeping at night like a good boy. 

Food cravings: orange juice!!!

Anything making you queasy or sick: i can eat everything, but can only eat a little bit at a time or i feel like i'm going to pop! 

Have you started to show yet: yes! feeling big and like my stomach is so stretched. little mister feels squished in there. 

Gender prediction: IT'S A BOY! little mister is on his way!

Belly Button in or out? half in half out?! so so so weird.

Wedding rings on or off? on!

Happy or Moody most of the time: happy, but getting a little uncomfortable. 

pregnancy symptoms: short of breath, sore back